
At age 17, I wasn't quite sure who I was or what I wanted in life. ..
This year marks 20 years I have been out of high school. I remember when my parents had their 25-year class reunion in 1993, 25 years seemed like forever! Way back in 1990 when my senior class was graduating, 20 years seemed like a lifetime away.
Truthfully, it probably is. So many things can change in 20 years and on occasion I even run into kids – well, no longer kids – that I went to school with. Sometimes I don’t even recognize them because in my mind, they should look like they did back in 1990 or thereabout. Some of my old classmates have children that are probably about to graduate from high school themselves!
When I look back and think about it, I realize that just as my classmates have changed over the years, I am not the same either. I don’t look like I did in high school – heck I haven’t had that same hair color in more than 16 years.
In truth, I feel like I am a totally different person than I was 20 years ago. I now have the advantage of experience and living life to make me who I am now – at the age of 37.
Back then I was unsure of myself and still struggling to figure out exactly who I was and where I was going in life.
Today, I still am trying to figure out things about myself but I am more comfortable in the skin I am in. I am less apt to be influenced by others and more grounded in my own ideas and beliefs.
At 17 I was idealistic and had a narrow view of things. Now at 37, I am much more realistic yet open to new ideas.
I look back and see mistakes I have made over the years that have led me to where and who I am today and yes, I could embrace my regrets. Instead, I believe that I will continue to see the mistakes as stepping stones – albeit cracked and crumbling stepping stones – that created the path to the person I am today.
I have read and heard some people looking back fondly upon their years in high school and waxing poetically about how wonderful the bonds of youth were. At the age of 17 I am sure I would have agreed that it was the best time in my life, but now – at 37 I can say that I am living the best time of my life and each day only gets a little better than the day before.
When I was 17 I looked toward the future fondly but now I simply live one day at a time – enjoying each and every one of them. I had big dreams at the age of 17 and I really didn’t even know what I really wanted out of life. At 37 I realize that even though I haven’t experienced the big plans I made at 17, I am quite happy with where life has taken me. In a weird, windy trail, I have ended up in a place in my life that I actually wanted but never realized.
So, in 20 years a lot of things can change but sometimes change is good. Very, very good.
And the ginormous panties in the picture? Well, that’s me in the picture (obviously) and the panties were a gag gift that I received for Christmas from my loving cousin, Gerry.